is it me or them?

i was caught being late on thursday and yes i was late again on friday ... i hate it when some one ask me a questions tat i can answer and tat answer is bad ... i hate this kind of issue any way i juz sms her some alternatives that i am willing to take for my own account. so i sms saying 830 am , i will skip my lunch to make up for it. then i was at office clearing the stuffs.

ok la, the request not constant , so i will find myself very busy and some time nothing to do ...
so i clear all the VR and Delete all the deletion request and i saw her mail... got dam piss
but i choose not to further justify my comment of skipping lunch. first reason is i just doing it cos i feel guilty ! ~ damit 2nd i am not asking them nor whoever to allow me to come late and skip my lunch ? Man I LOVE TO EAT is tat not enough cos i feel guilty ? i dun think they understand yet i dun think they even care... but yes it my fault to began with and i have to take the steps to wake up earlier... which means no more late night animes , dota , Pubbing Cs servers and 85 sessions.

i went to my friend's mom funeral with my family. sadness fills my heart hearin his words and i can actually agree with him tat some time we do react negatively or so called rebel agaist our mom. Hey dun get it wrong i know how is it to be alone ... and i live by it but come on man if my mom were to left me alone i will still survive. the harderst part is to keep living alone at home . this is the time where we will actually sit down and recap memories . it is a mental tourtur ....

no matter how much i might rebel in my life to my mom ... i hope she knows that she is the onli one i live for and i will try to appreciate her as much as i possibly can

orh yea i got another job offer form citigroup doing proxy trouble shooting and stuff.... office hour but 24 hours stand by ... dunno how much they willing to pay me which also depends the result of calling CMPB to enquire abt my Enlistmet to the National Service.

Hope every thing is all right ... i not angry with any one just tat i was mis understood and i hate to be misunderstood. remember the sky and clouds that gives u rain , water and life can also turn into a storm, destroying and making people suffer.

quote of the day "Shev knows he is not performing and he is not happy abt it, that's a gd thing. if not we will have a problem"

yaya i know my problem MR morinosaurus and i m not happy abt it but it seems u think i am making it as an acceptable behaviour. Assumption is a dangerous thing . i bet most gals out there like my sis love to make assumptions.

WORK WORK WORK

well its has been a long time since i have Cs training.
feel kind of weird. firstly saturday sunday very Free and got nth much to do, not as
tired as always. Cs really took alot of time but for now i really feel lost.
gaming friends drifted apart, poly friends all going in NS, friends that i lost contact,
and many more ah just to say afew. well gd things dun last but all i can do is cherish every
moment and keep it safe in my memories.

wad i doing now? work, go home, play game, eat, sleep .... its the same routine from
monday to friday. yes every day late for work, people ask to go out jog or wad i will be
so tired and insist tat i dun go ... crap rite... during the week days i wish for week end and when
week end comes i juz wasted it away cos i nv had plans. it sucks seriously.

i think i got a strong mental strength but now come to think of it i am juz being own by the working life and Droping Cs is definately not a good move.

i talk to afew people who can actually understand la abt this, i realize that i need to get
my hands on something quick or i be wasting my week ends doing nothing.

i like to apologize to CsN n Fangs tat due to my own pride and promise i wont be able to join this team. the reason is simply due to me not accepting the fact tat i am not good enough to play as a team player any more. from wad i c and anylise , i found out tat i am the problem.

i feel so free now ... so free until i dun know wad to do.... imagine i download animes until i cant finish watching. i still got 5 dvd to watch. i keep myself buzy tat way which is one of the reason y i getting fat. its time i think i find something to do tat help myself as much as it fills my time.

may be basketball? orh yea i give it up a long time ago... Cs if i can find a reason to play...
dota dun even think abt it... soccer , may be i will join kane they all for some ball kicking...
AGGRR!~ depress now ... i think i going to get depression again ! how how how wahahahaha

ok i got 2 request from philipines, i try to blog again ... may be i should blog more often and fill up my time craping abt shit in the sky and how the clouds shapes effecting my mood or how i can c the skyline of TAMPINESE !!! Wahahaha may be a definate MAY BE

wads up with me

i have to confest ...
i been buying animal product from the past few months...
2 months ago- leather chair made form cow skin
this month i bought a Braun Buffel wallet with Horse Hair
hmmm i didnt have any thought of it being cruel to animal.
cos i love animal. but then this animal is food =x ( cow i mean )
the wallet leather dunno made from wad la but i know got horse hair
which is juz hair wad =x wahaha

juz feel very weird tho. orh yea i was sick on yesterday (thursday)
had a bad stomachach in the middle of the night and continued all the way
till i got myself ready to go work. in the end i decided to visit the poly
clinic.

saw this MAT at the clinic with the wife and his baby and he said this as if
he wants the whole clinic to know " pukimak nye melayu ".
first reaction Stunned lo. then i start to laugh cos tat dumb ass is also a malay ma
bloddy hell it juz remind me of dumb and dummer. haha so tupid some more have
his own family still do this kind of things.

then i went to NTUC to buy groceries la with my mom. usual la find the shortest que ma. then this auntie paikia sia cos my mom got to the shortest que then like tiok some shit form her! i was quite slow to react ... then i said this... y who not happy ? mom u not happy with tat auntie? wahahaha ( my mom stunned for a moment )
then i also stunned cos i behaving like the MAT i mention aborve !!! wahahhaaha

that was not all, there is the counter gal who charge the customer before me extra. then she need to rescaned every items again! pity her ( i think she is a noob or wad u call new staff ba ) then when it come to my turn she find it hard to scan the whole chiken! then my mom give a bright idea to tear the plastic. LOL
the chiken landed on the scanner !!!! wahahahha the CHICKEN IS ON THE SCANNER
then the other chicken landed on the floor!! she so dam paiseh she dun even dare to look at me ! then she keep making her fringe cover her eyes. haha i told her take her time slowly do, she juz nod her head. well she is quite funni la but she is cute and i think much much younger then me ... my mom also laughing after tat whole incident lor ...


its quite fun la ... entertain my mom. i didnt know today was her day off sia... lucky i was sick ! wahahhaah orh yea the doctor say i got gastric flu?
WAD THE HELL IS TAT? i tot he ask me lay down cos he want to poke my back side sia!
then he put the tele scope on my tummi say orh u got GASTRIC FLU!
i tot wad sia... then he side trac WTF he ask me u use to be very fat ah? cos a lot of scratch mark ... then i say last time i fit now i fat tat y like tat ... then he stun !! wahahahahahahaha

ok la i go chill and sleep first, i will post abt the NHK anime i watch tml

november. december. 2007.
so many things to do and so little time. Fualan
gota clear the dragging Blaz[3] Polo T if not its gona
be forever to finish it. the website, hmmm our dearest designer
busy with school so we got to wait till she is free from her Xams.
yes ah X-mas is coming... dunno how to celebrate sia. may be sit at home
again? lol talking abt xmas, i can recall flashes of past xmas memories i had.
Dam lol sia. any way this week saw alot of people... went back to school
to c the joniors playing bball and street soccer. man i want to play! saw many
familiar faces yet i cant remember most of their names. =(
any way went out with Ah tat on friday looking for wallet.
wahahha i target the braun buffel Helden 342w ... dunno how much is it sia...
saw korn on friday wahaha she was late! was to pissed off with the friendly driver.

imagin U are Late... then u tell the driver then her took a wong turn...
and he told u he is not familiar with east side. then caught with 4 redlight b4 heading towards tampinese. man he still got the cheek to say he is a Liverpool fan i could have juz hit his head with the IBM labtop. any way the cab driver is a nice guy tho, i jump out of the taxi and walk quickly accross the road. then i head some one calling out my name. lol it was korn and she is late !
i late and its due to the rain and i found out she was also late becos of that.

any way kind of sian, more and more ppl are leaving and i left all alone when every one need to serve the nation. crap .

nxt year if they still nv call me i will go down cmpb to make a din there.

switch to multiply

hmmm hihi i back with a dump post

i might switch to multipy for the blogg thingy wahhaha =P

any way i working for ISA Tampines
Citibank now ... wahahahaha sian ah WHEN NS SIA!

from tampinese to milinia walk. where else can they post me?
i sort of becoming the handy man for fujitsu, really learn alot of stuff
but some how i think there is something wrong somewhere.
may be the new enviroment? the sleeping disorder? wad else can it be?
well i some how sees things slower and harder to absorb and this really makes me worried. for more then 8 months i been working with out a holiday, saturday usualy burned by the CS ( couterstike ) commitment and sunday always got things on. family and stuff. i feel a total stranger to every 1 now a days. i feel like a ghost or like a shadow that is least important. ok i feel like shit.
yesterday my mom sort of tricked me to go ikea queensway. orh yea i did mention that i want a computer table but i nv really say its the top of my list or its very important. so i ask her in disbelieve " Y did u buy the Computer table as a birthday gift for me? and wad a incomplete bdaygift with out a Computer chair? ".
she onli say this. UnGretful child . fua lan but yes i am happy my mom got me the computer and a computer table. wad more have i ask form her? absolute nothing.
well yea my bday coming, with this down and shity stuff i am feeling its a good twist for my upcoming 21st bday rite? haha
well miuki and mei fong birthday is on the 7th this month happy bday gals. guys
Jasper, Jinhui (pb-api), gabrial and my opposite twin poipoi who share the same birthday as me ! happy birthday to u guys. scared later too busy to wish u guys man.
well i wish i could do this on a regular basis but i cant. too many stuff to handle as u can see, i am the jack of all trades lil handy man . in army u can call me sai kang warrior. hehehe till next time ya HOPE EVERY 1 HAVE A GOOD OCTOB expecially the OCTOBABIES!

Last day was not Today

came to work with alot of energy, was looking forward to treat my citibank colleague.
along the way Johnatan ( Colleague ) explain that they cant let me treat them makan because of some department policy but we still went ahead with the lunch at BaliThai at TM. i feel very paiseh la every time they treat me , Every time after lunch, Ben will ask if i want to eat desert. then after desert we will talk n chill at Ya kun kopitiam, then ben will buy the usual Kopi-O for me. some time they still treat me makan at some other places la and not to mention the Tea break i also no need to come out any single cent. feel very paiseh la

today i got to treat them Drink Ya Kun. hehe at least i wont feel so bad ma.
orh yea saw joan at Ya Kun while we findig place to eat, anyway we went back to office waited for 3 o clock for the free hagendaz icecream and hersheys chocolate bar. even before we could dig in we johnathan, ben, kok, chiong and me ate a moose chocolate cake from marriot singapore! dam nice but cant finish. we had too much for lunch! then we go for the icecreams thats when sham find me asking if Amanda have talk to me. there are afew discussion and hey i was posted to DTM team or some thing like tat woriking together with arron.

which means i not leaving citibank juz yet lor. citibank may be a male working env but seriously they are a great bunch of people. Ben very helpful, John very cool sia with his jokes and stuff , Kok really KOK, magesh very gentle , sundram understanding , chong very adventurous and cher tee sounds like wrf Melvin sia, but he is cool !

really feel so lucky to meet them and really learn quite a few thing from there.
hmmm which means i wont get my deserve break but i will get to work with a great bunch of Fujitsu team !